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Relationships, in general, have been a fascination of mine. It's the various ways people communicate to one another that has always sparked a huge interest. Without a doubt, I can safely say that any given person can pick out at least one relationship in their lives that got them turned inside out, topsy turvy and all: Father/Mother, Brother/Sister, Husband/Wife, Father/Son, Mother/Daughter, Boyfriend/Girlfriend, Friend/Friend.

What is it exactly do we get out of relationships, if anything at all?

Earlier I got to thinking about a past relationship I've had with a young gentleman, by the name of D.R.W. Caring man with a magnetic personality, loving nature, and a silly demeanor to boot. I will always remember the moments he would try to get me to open up, and not be so afraid to get "close" to him. He had opened the doors to a world of intimacy that I was not at all prepared for. Prior to him, all I knew was to keep my guard up and pray for the best. Slowly but surely, I began to trust him a little more. How does one convert a non-believer, you ask? Well, for one, he was never afraid to be intimate. Secondly, he didn't have to say it because he knew how to make me feel loved. He made it easy for me to let my guard down and simply love.

What's sad about this particular relationship is that the person being written about has no idea how wonderful he is and was to me. Surrounded, if not blinded by the ubiquitous coterie of "players", I can only hope I will find a man as genuinely honest and open as he. He was never afraid to talk to me. Nor was he ever hesitant to share his feelings. As a result, I often joked with him that he was more of the "girlfriend" in the relationship than I ever could be. It was a struggle being a couple the first two years. This was only because I found difficulty accepting the authenticity of one's words and of one's actions. *Funny how my improvisational class this Saturday had a lecture on the word sincerity. We received a lecture on this during our "character" workshop.*

How do we truly know that everything we do or say isn't total bullshit? What and who can we believe? Wouldn't speaking the truth be love's definitive? (in any and all relationships) I haven't ventured a sensible guess to why the truth is too damn hot to handle yet.

Relationships are like teeter totters; You have to give a little, to get a little, if you want to go anywhere. What if you were afraid to give, only because you were afraid you wouldn't receive?

It's mind boggling how we'll never truly remember what people say to us, but we will always remember how they made us feel.

Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment, are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution.--- Deepak Chopra

Dedicated to D.R.W.: Thank you for your patience. You showed me how to love, and you always did.

(Damn shame that I had forgotten how... I'm just too damn afraid. Too damn afraid.)

The sun will be rising momentarily. I await the morning I find that certain warmth again.