The trouble people have with learning, whether it be from discussions, from experience, or from books, does not arise from the difficulty of the lessons to be learned. It stems from the fact that before any new notions can be grasped, we have so much to unlearn: our beloved sentimentalities, our inherited dogmas, our superstitions, our pet intellectual cliches-all serving to nullify, distort, or caricature beyond recognition the lessons we receive. As an American humorist once said, "What's wrong with most people in not their ignorance, but the number of things they know which ain't so." Well said.
In lessons about life, love, and living, our own experiences warrant how we deal with people, and in some cases, how to avoid them. Based simply on experience, my idealogical mind frame can shift from time to time, leaving a lack of space for forgiveness, a nonexistant personal preference agenda, lack of fair judgement, and even little to no patience.
Never have I ever tried to become a strain or a sorespot for people in my life. In general, I want people I care about to feel happy in my company. It gives me pleasure to make people feel good, regardless if I am feeling less than spectacular. Why? Simply, that's how I deal with my own irrational feelings and vulnerabilities. One of the lessons I am acquiring, even now, is to avoid throwing over any of my personal problems at other people. Why? I have enough drama, and I don't need any more to add.
So, the next time someone says, "No wonder you're so fucked up about people" I can only say, "You think you know me, but you don't. No one does. No one will."
My current mood: (In song, no less) Not bitter, just exhausted with people..
I Am The Resurrection
-The Stone Roses
Down down, you bring me down
I hear you knocking at my door and I can’t sleep at night
Your face, it has no place
No room for you inside my house I need to be alone
Don’t waste your words I don’t need anything from you
I don’t care where you’ve been or what you plan to do
Turn turn, I wish you’d learn
There’s a time and place for everything I’ve got to get it through
Cut loose, you’re no use
I couldn’t stand another second in your company
Don’t waste your words I don’t need anything from you
I don’t care where you’ve been or what you plan to do
Stone me, why can’t you see
You’re a no-one nowhere washed up baby who’d look better dead
Your tongue is far too long
I don’t like the way it sucks and slurps upon my every word
Don’t waste your words I don’t need anything from you
I don’t care where you’ve been or what you plan to do
I am the resurrection and I am the light
I couldn’t ever bring myself to hate you as I’d like
I am the resurrection and I am the light
I couldn’t ever bring myself to hate you as I’d like
